18 Kislev 5781 Erev Shabbat

 

December 4, 2020

Friday

There's so much love in this picture...You won't even have to look twice...

There's so much love between a man and the woman whom he calls his bride

Such a mystery to see so much love between two people

Just a glimpse of how it would feel like to be the heavenly bride

Psalm 54
For the director of music. With stringed instruments. A maskil[b] of David. When the Ziphites 
had gone to Saul and said, “Is not David hiding among us?”

1 Save me, O God, by your name; vindicate me by your might.
2 Hear my prayer, O God; listen to the words of my mouth.
3 Arrogant foes are attacking me; ruthless people are trying to kill me—
people without regard for God.
4 Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me.
5 Let evil recoil on those who slander me; in your faithfulness destroy them.
6 I will sacrifice a freewill offering to you; I will praise your name, Lord, for it is good.
7 You have delivered me from all my troubles,
and my eyes have looked in triumph on my foes.

Abba Yakar, 

Blessed are YOU Adonai Elohim King of the Universe! My Everlasting! Toda Raba for this day though busy but I feel purposeful and productive! I forwarded a warning message to Zvika thru whatsapp and he didn't reply. I feel sad but not as before to the point that I want to give up praying for him. Today it feels different, like it's just a fact without much feelings that YOU revealed that my husband is him. And so I continue to pray irregardless of what I know or see today that YOU protect, love and bless Zvika, guide him, reveal YOURSELF to him and preserve him for me. Give him a supernatural encounter and spiritual experience with YOU as YOU have done so with me and even more. Father, fill him will YOUR love and YOUR Ruach Hakodesh, fill him until he overflows Avi. Toda for loving him, I pray that my husband will love me like YOU love me. I pray he will love me so much! I long to be loved Avi. And while I was reflecting on Psalm 54, somebody I am not fond of suddenly came to my mind - Priyanka Chopra and so I research about her. What surprises me with this girl is that she married a man 10 years younger than her, and who is the most crushed on, sought after man in the teenage world of hollywood. Nick Jonas is the handsomest Jonas and every celebrity probably loves him. But he fell in love with the most unlikely woman - indian, 10 years senior and just plain exotic. Nobody could top her beauty she was uniquely Priyanka and Jonas loved him more than she loved him, you can tell. I pray it will be like that with me, minus the age gap Avi, 10 years is too much. I want him taller than me, I wanted him older than me, but YOU said he is younger and so I will just have to deal with that. I'm just so thankful that he is going to be like a Nick Jonas falling in love with a Priyanka who can't wait another year to marry her. He has to marry her right now. That's what I want. So Avi, toda for such a intelligent and passionate husband whom YOU are pleased, who is a true son of Israel whose spirit has not deceit. Let him come to me Avi, according to YOUR word and promise for me, let him love me first Avi please let him see me and love me first... Toda for that wonderful man... Toda for our wedding and our unique love story only YOU could have written in both our hearts. 

 Ba HaShem YESHUA, HaMashiach, Amen!

 

Genesis 35:12-36:19
14 Ya‘akov set up a standing-stone in the place where he had spoken with him, a stone pillar. Then he poured out a drink offering on it and poured oil on it. 15 Ya‘akov called the place where God spoke with him Beit-El.
27 Ya‘akov came home to his father Yitz’chak at Mamre, near Kiryat-Arba (also known as Hevron), where Avraham and Yitz’chak had lived as foreigners. 28 Yitz’chak lived to be 180 years old. 29 Then he breathed his last, died and was gathered to his people, an old man full of years; and his sons ‘Esav and Ya‘akov buried him.

Dear Abba,

HOLY HOLY HOLY are YOU Adonai Elohim! Blessed are YOU O LORD my GOD King of the Universe! My Everlasting! Toda for a wonderful sleep, the dreams I had were not as bad, more on covid and escaping the disasters coming on earth... I was with Andrew Luy my highschool classmate and that was the weird part. But he symbolized somebody intelligent, and somebody who loves me, in the dream, I don't know if he is my husband. Abba I was just thanking YOU this morning for giving long life to my parents, and good health, thank YOU for letting them enjoy good health, for extending their lives so that they still get to enjoy their grand children. Abba, I have been longing to have a husband, so that I can give them grandkids. When will YOU do this for me Abba? It is already the 4th of December of 2020 or the 18th of Kislev, 4 years after YOU confirmed to Bishop Eugene that I will marry a jewish man. Abba, speak to the Bishop, where is this man? Also it is 9 years after 2011 that YOU first spoke to me that my husband was born of Zion but where is he? When will YOU bring us together? Abba, speak to him, bring us together....I am not giving up on what YOU promised me Adonai. I am holding on, not letting go of YOUR hand, not letting go of YOU like Yakov until YOU bless me and fulfill YOUR Promise to me. Avi, I wait, I wait on YOU, what else can I do?


Zechariah 13

7 “Awake, sword, against my shepherd, against the man who is close to me,”
says Adonai-Tzva’ot. “Strike the shepherd, and the sheep will be scattered;
I will turn my hand against the young ones.
8 In time, throughout that land,” says Adonai, “two-thirds of those in it will be destroyed —
they will die, but one-third will remain.
9 That third part I will bring through the fire; I will refine them as silver is refined,
I will test them as gold is tested. They will call on my name, and I will answer them.
I will say, ‘This is my people’ and they will say, ‘Adonai is my God.’”

Matthew 17 A Boy Is Healed

14 And when they had come to the multitude, a man came to Him, kneeling down to Him and saying, 15 “Lord, have mercy on my son, for he is [c]an epileptic and suffers severely; for he often falls into the fire and often into the water. 16 So I brought him to Your disciples, but they could not cure him.”
17 Then Jesus answered and said, “O [d]faithless and perverse generation, how long shall I be with you? How long shall I bear with you? Bring him here to Me.” 18 And Jesus rebuked the demon, and it came out of him; and the child was cured from that very hour.
19 Then the disciples came to Jesus privately and said, “Why could we not cast it out?”
20 So Jesus said to them, “Because of your [e]unbelief; for assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you. 21 [f]However, this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting.”

Hallelujah!!! Abba! Just before I read the word about fasting, and they didn't put it up in CJB. I was thinking that I should go back to fasting because I need power from YOU. I don't know, I don't want it to be about works but I want it to be YOUR power and miracle taking place in our lives. But Avi, I have already fasted so much is not my fasting enough? I fasted more than the average Pastor and I want YOU to do great things for me Avi. I have sown already and I am waiting to reap YOUR answers to my prayers. Although right now it may seem like nothing is happening but I know YOU will not fail or dissappoint me Avi. So Avi, I continue to lift up to YOU the healing of Mom, Dad and their marriage. The deliverance of David, and his healing from the brokeness of his heart for letting go of something that is not YOUR will. I pray for the salvation, miracle working power to come to Zvika Rotbart and his family Moshe, Miriam, Joshua, Moran, Jonathan and his wife, the Glick family in Israel, the Hattab family in London. The miraculous salvation and divine restoration of the Uy family of James, Bebe, Godwill and Hanz Uy. The salvation and full truth of YESHUA upon Atty Sheiryl and her family, Raquel, Rosel, Grace, their families, humility and loyalty of Ciriaca, James, Letecia, Jun, Elsie, Catalina, Rose, Elvie, Noli, and all our workers in our Company. The deliverance of Shanyn, Shamiene, healing of Charsie, the salvation of the Manzano family of sis ivy, Gacusan and Rubio family in YESHUA. Avi, everyday I pray for these people, because I know YOU are at work. YOU will heal them and save them Adonai YESHUA, even Ronald Acera, Ludimar Baltazar so that they will receive YOUR grace and enter YOUR kingdom. Avi, please take care of every problem we face because YOU perfect everything that concerns us. YOU care for the little things that concern us. YOUR love is so deep and amazing! So please Avi, take care of me, my days, I offer them up to YOU. Have YOUR way in them Avi. Toda for my husband, and how YOU are going to unfold our love story. It is already beautiful, I know because YOU are the GOD who does more than we could ever ask or imagine! Toda for preparing everything even the work YOU have called us to do. Toda Avi, for calling me and chosing me. Please help me to live according to YOUR way and be pleased with me as YOU are pleased with my husband.

Matthew 17 Peter and His Master Pay Their Taxes

24 When they had come to [h]Capernaum, those who received the [i]temple tax came to Peter and said, “Does your Teacher not pay the temple tax?”
25 He said, “Yes.”
And when he had come into the house, Jesus anticipated him, saying, “What do you think, Simon? From whom do the kings of the earth take customs or taxes, from their sons or from strangers?”
26 Peter said to Him, “From strangers.”
Jesus said to him, “Then the sons are free. 27 Nevertheless, lest we offend them, go to the sea, cast in a hook, and take the fish that comes up first. And when you have opened its mouth, you will find a [j]piece of money; take that and give it to them for Me and you.”

Toda Avi, Blessed are YOU O HOLY ONE Almighty! Let YOUR Kingdom come, let YOUR will be done here on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us today our daily bread, forgive us our sins as we forgive those that have wronged us. Do not lead us to testings and trials but deliver us from all evil. For unto YOU belong all power, glory and honor now and forever in YESHUA, AMEN!